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#10 ~ Can’t Help Myself, From Hurting You When It’s Hurting Me

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So the holidays and RL has made me kinda fall behind on my blogging unfortunately. I had been posting 1 a day and have quite a few items that I hope to catch up on and this outfit happens to be one of them.  In both our RL and SL lives we all have those moments that we feel like nothing we do is correct, that we hurt those around us even without meaning to.  Sometimes we feel that maybe it would be better if we were by ourselves so we couldn’t watch the pain that our actions cause even when we have the best of intentions in mind.

These past few weeks have been a trying and hard to handle to say the very least. Seems like no matter what appears to be the best solution to the challenges that are being faced, someone always gets hurt. It’s even harder when you have people around you who put you on a pedestal and think so highly of you and yet you push them away.  It’s not from wanting to hurt them but just the exact opposite.  Sometimes there are people who walk into your life and change it so drastically in a way you never knew you craved or needed.  Yet instead of surrendering yourself you build a wall and push them away not only to protect yourself but them as well. 

As you can tell from previous blogs I always tend to have a “theme song” for that said blog. It could be a song that fits my mood at the time of blogging, a song that inspired that specific blog, or even just a song that I want to share with everyone. This weeks song is pretty much all 3 reasons combined. One very specific lyric that i can relate to is “I’ll tear you down, I’ll make you bleed eternally, Can’t help myself, From hurting you when it’s hurting me”.  Kinda sums up everything going on at the moment not just with myself but with a lot of people. When we as humans hurt we tend to hurt those closest to us, I guess that’s why we aren’t all angels though……

  Anyways back to this AMAZING outfit from last months Fantasy Fair Gacha.  I love the simplicity yet elegance this whole Gacha set embodied.  It is sexy yet elegant and embodies everything a beautiful set of silks should embody. Below are the credentials to this amazing outfit. Enjoy ❤

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Body {Maitreya} Lara Body v3.5

Head {CATWA} Mesh Head ~ Alice

Shape {Mine}

Skin {Plastik Flagship} Yule – Femme (Madpea Advent Gift)

Eyes {Zombie Suicide} Ghostly Eyes

Hair {Truth} Irena w/Bangs (VIP GROUP GIFT)

Ears {BentBox} Sylvan Ears

Headpiece {Luas} Iriana Gacha Accessories Set 1 – Rare

Choker {Luas} Iriana Gacha Accessories Set 2 – Rare

Gloves {Luas) Iriana Gacha Accessories Set 2 – Rare

Thighband {Luas} Iriana Gacha Accessories Set – Rare

Skirt {Luas} Iriana Gacha Skirt Purple – Common

Top {Luas} Iriana Gacha Top Purple – Common

Rings {RealEvil Industries} Raven RIngs Set Slink Casual

Anklet {D-Style} Palemonia Anklet

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You made a mistake
On the day that you met me and lost your way
You saw all the signs
But you let it go
You closed your eyes
I should of told you to leave
‘Cause I knew all the time you couldn’t handle me
But you’re hard to resist
When you’re on your knees
Begging me

I’ll tear you down
I’ll make you bleed eternally
Can’t help myself
From hurting you when it’s hurting me
I don’t have wings
To fly with me won’t be easy
‘Cause I’m not an angel
I’m not an angel

Hate being that wall
That you hit when you feel like you gave it all
I keep taking the blame
When we both know that I’ll never change

I’ll tear you down
I’ll make you bleed eternally
Can’t help myself
From hurting you when it’s hurting me
I don’t have wings
To fly with me won’t be easy
‘Cause I’m not an angel
I’m not an angel

I wasn’t always this way
I used to be the one with the halo
But that disappeared when I had my first taste
And fell from grace
It left me in this place
I’m starting to think maybe you like it

I’ll tear you down
I’ll make you bleed eternally
Can’t help myself
From hurting you when it’s hurting me
I don’t have wings
To fly with me won’t be easy
‘Cause I’m not an angel
I’m not an angel

Halestorm – I’m Not An Angel

#9 ~ You Don’t Need to Bother; I Don’t Need to Be

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So I’ve decided to start something new with my blogs and not just simply credit the designers but also do a bit of actual blogging as well, so hopefully this goes well and ya’ll don’t hate my random ramblings of my crazy mind.

This week has been a crazy week for new releases in SL from The Aracade (Outfits from the previous post as well as new posts can be found there), Chapter 4, Crossroads, Suicide Dolls (which is featured here in this post) and so many more I am officially tapped out in SL funds because the designers have out done themselves this month. I was actually doing my normal 2 hours of trying to get dressed on the 4th when SeraphimSL dropped the notice of all the goodies Suicide Dolls had JUST opened up with and saw the headpiece that is featured in this blog and decided to coordinate an entire look based around it. 

After discovering the headpiece by Glampire, I was inspired to design a dark and somber, yet sexy and interesting look.  The majority of my inspiration came from the Suicide Dolls round because of all the amazing items they had this time from the amazing socks that were found in the Zombie Suicide booth, to the sexy and unique tattoo from an interesting store’s booth called This Is Wrong. Needless to say the round of items were amazing all together as always especially for those days when you just need to let your inner demons show.

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Body {Maitreya} Lara Body v3.5

Head {CATWA} Mesh Head – Alice

Shape {Mine}

Skin {alterego} Aaisling – Sunkissed (Group Gift)

Eyes {Zombie Suicide} Ghostly Eyes @ Suicide Dolls

Lipstick {Zombie Suicide} Galaxy Lips @Suicide Dolls

Hair {Spellbound} Sacred Rite //Chapter 3 : Magic

Headpiece {Glampire} Dark Empress Horns Deluxe (Silver) @ Suicide Dolls

Nose Chain {Glampire} Akaesha Nose Chain @ Suicide Dolls

Choker {Glampire} Akaesha Choker (Silver) @ Suicide Dolls

Bodysuit {Suicide Undead} Daeva Bodysuit – 01

Tattoo {This Is Wrong} Swirl Tattoo @ Suicide Dolls

Socks {Zombie Suicide} Maggie Socks @ Suicide Dolls

Rings {Kibitz} Olzen Ring Set Onyx

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Wish I was too dead to cry
My self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater
You don’t need to bother;
I don’t need to be
I’ll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won’t let go ’til it bleeds
Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

#8 ~ Guys My Age Don’t Know How To Treat Me

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Body {Maitreya} Lara Body v3.5

Head {CATWA} Alice Mesh Head

Shape {Mine} Custom Shapes by Kiki

Skin {alterego} Aaisling – Sunkissed (Group Gift)

Eyes {SONG} Cult – Ocean Eye

Hair {TRUTH} Sugar w/Bangs (VIP Group Gift)

Earrings {LaGyo} Stars Earring – Silver

Dress {Blueberry} Show Time Gacha #2 *Queen* – Rare @ Decembers Arcade Round

Jacket {Blueberry} Show Time Gacha #4 *Queen* – Rare @ Decembers Arcade Round

Shoes {Blueberry} Show Time Gacha #5 – Nel Shoes – Rare @ Decembers Arcade Round

‘Cause you hold me like a woman
In a way I’ve never felt before
And it makes me wanna hold on
And it makes me wanna be all yours

Guys my age don’t know how to treat me
Don’t know how to treat me, don’t know how to treat me
Guys my age don’t know how to touch me
Don’t know how to love me good
Guys my age don’t know how to keep me
Don’t know how to keep me, don’t know how to keep me
Guys my age don’t know how to touch me
Don’t know how to love me good

All he ever wanted was to go down
What we supposed to do with all his friends around? (yeah)
Smoking weed, he’d never wanna leave the house
Got an empty cushion on that sofa now

Told him, “good luck with the next one”
Maybe she’ll be just as immature
Gotta thank him, he’s the reason
That I’ll find out what I’m looking for

Guys My Age ~ Hey Violet